Rozovian

Dunno when, but at some point, I just stopped updating this. I won't be doing that anymore. Updating it, that is. I hereby retire the blog and wish you'd all visit my new blog(s).

The swedish, general one

The english, music one

So forget about this one, or have fun reading through while comparing the tone and language to that of my new ones. If you're not swedish-speaking (suppose that means you, Rex), you won't be getting much out of the swedish one... unless you really like how google translate fumbles with the language.

Bye bye, rozovian.blogspirit.com. I'd say it was nice knowing you, but it wasn't. Also, I didn't just know you. See y'all elsewhere. :D

Been a long time since, but I got sick again. And I mean seriously sick. Sick as in: my eyes hurt. Sick as in: my head hurts. Sick as in: my stomach hurts. Sick as in: My sense of balance is screwed up. Sick as in: my nose is worse than usual.

Being sick is painful and boring. I'm not gonna write long, just enough to let the world know I feel like crap. Useful information.

Yup, this is the land of red noses.

There are loads of things I'd like to talk about, like how I've become a fan of Helen Trevillion, how weird warmth feels during winter which I discovered while seated right by a heater in the bus, how I'm totally lost about what I'm gonna do this fall.

The one of these I feel the least happy about is the third. As confusing as it may be, I don't mind listening to what a netfriend called chick flick music, and I'm not gonna complain about the weird contrast bewteen electrically generated heat and quasi-winter. What am I gonna do this fall?

Seriously, I want to get into music professionally, but I feel I don't have the tools and experience enough for that. I could take some other job, but anything involving any significant amount of social activity has me worried I'll just mouth off and screw stuff up. A more mechanical job like working in the limestone mine not far from where I'll live this fall, or in construction, or anything else feels like a waste of my brain and it's many creative promise.

Then there's the possibility of continuing education, but I'm not sure I could conform. I mean, the past 2,5 years have been great, I was fortunate to end up in a class of people that I've really enjoyed working and studying with, but odds are that's not gonna happen again. For that matter, I'm kind'a tired of the weird blend of theoretical and practical.

Take our business class for example. I can do the mechanical labor of copying someone's business model, and I have no problem with the bookkeeping. I can spit out a dozen ideas for a business - the problem is meshing the mechanical parts with the creative ones. That doesn't work for me. At least not in business class. Which is why I failed it.

School's giving us an opportunity to catch up on failed courses, but I can't focus. Either I've been at work practice for too long, or it's just not my thing. Unfortunately, I have no choice. Same goes for finnish, tho there it's less of a problem working it out as it is showing up for the freakin' test. I was sick then, and I feel like being sick this time too.

Since both classes are mandatory, it kind'a sucks being me. I know the others are having similar problems. Three out of, what are we, sixteen, failed business. Several of us haven't taken the test in finnish, or haven't turned in our assignments. A photography/photoshop class is also among the courses we, as a whole, haven't performed very diligently in. Those, and PE, are courses I've failed and have to finish or compensate for.

I can do PE anytime by going to a gym a few times and remembering to keep the receit or some other proof. Photography/photoshop can wait, as can business, I think. The assignments in finnish can also wait. What can't wait is taken the test in finnish, but business finnish isn't really my forte.

It looks like I'll be finish my current studies this fall, as I don't seme able to focus on them now. If I get the finnish test done, I'll be happy. Studying this fall means I should survive economically even without a job, as I'll likely quit my current one when we move.

Yeah, we'll probably move a dozen miles. It means more space, greater distances, mass transit near inexistant, so I better get back to getting my driver's licence. *sigh* So much to do, so little... something.

Working hard or hardly working, hard to say when my work seems to be all about making the machines do it for me... My job, then, is to set up a recording and let the machines record footage from one machine to the other, from VHS to digital.

I've been looking for different ways to spend the time in between switching tapes and naming files, and today, Portal came to the rescue. With so much of the sd3 project running again, and the stuff that doesn't run is stuff I can't fix, I can finally spend time on something that's fun in itself. And Portal is fun, from level 2 all the way until you start freaking out about having to do the same thing over and over because you fall into the "water" and die. Yeah, that's where I'm at. Stupid fall/jump momentum. Actually, it's the trajectory that bothers me, I know how to solve the room I'm in, the puzzle I'm in, but I keep flying too much forward or back out of the dang portal.

And then there's that annoying voice, hinting at the possibility that this is Cube all over again, except with more gameplay value, less geometrically simplstic rooms, more technology, less people, more gameplay value, and less numeric math. It's a beautiful and fun game, but in reality, it'd be a nightmare. A forgotten experiment nevertheless, or is it.

Still, Protricity's Portal in Half-Life movie is all the more fun. Google is your friend, and if you, unlike myself, have played Half-Life you'll enjoy it. I did.

Okay, the Seiken Densetsu 3 project I recall having mentioned here before... it's up. And so am I, despite not having quite having reclaimed my usual rhythm. We still don't have internet access at home, due to some power surge or something that killed the adsl modem, but church, work, school, they all have net so I get by.

But it does mean I spend some pretty late hours at church. I work there too, so I gots them keys. Oh right, I don't have the keys to the outer doors anymore. Thanks a lot, burglars.

Someone left the church door unlocked some time during new year. Someone got in, then tried to break into the offices. Stole a screen and about 50 bucks. Stupid burglars, didn't take our expensive iMacs or any other computer for that matter, didn't take any of the isntruments or amps, couldn't break into the second office but tried... lol

But the locks were changed, and I don't have a key anymore. It's annoying to have to borrow my dad's key again. Thanks a lot, burglars.

Anyway, the sd3 project is alive, and we're getting a lot of interest, especially since it's only been back up, officially, for half a day. A large portion of the ocr community is asleep now, and many are at work. Gonna be interesting to look at it tomorrow.

Sixto Sounds, Jovette Rivera, Darkesword, and Usa... Who else should be mentioned...?